About Being A College Post-Grad

I've just graduated college 3 months ago. I applied for a few jobs, turned down one job offer which I had already been in the last stage of interview, and get accepted at a company which located in my hometown. During these 3 months, I really had the time of my life where I could sleep late after watching the whole season of American TV series or Youtube videos, woke up super-late, only eat whenever I was hungry and occasionally went to the mall or café with my closest friend(s). I'm just a typical lazy girl (or woman?) who's completely spending the free time I had in my plate so well. At least that's what most people see.

Sometimes in between my sleepless nights, I questioned myself whether this is the life that I've been dreaming of all these times or not; graduated from college earlier (it took me 3.7 years to finish college), get a job at one of the biggest local herbal drinking company 3 months after and living a decent life as a salarywoman. The answer is no. Rather than feeling accomplished (well, that only lasts for 3 days after they announced my bachelor degree), I'm feeling kind of empty and...scared. Being a salarywoman is never my dream. I never liked the idea of sitting inside a cubicle from 8 to 5 and being bossed around by people. To make it more specific, I don't like living a monotone life. 

I grew to love challenge in my college days. There was always an unexpected event that occurred to me in every semester. There are more and more people who trusted difficult tasks to me and I did my best to finish them. The difficulty level increased over time and I finished the tasks that I never thought I'm capable of. I was proud and happy. That's it, until I graduated and the excitement of accomplishing things was yanked away from me. I was forced to leave my little circle of happy life and jumped into work that has never been on my bucket list. At this point, you can blame me for being so dumb applying for the job that I don't even love in the first place. Well, it's not that I want to. There were circumstances that I can't explain here which made me do it. Life is always full of surprise, isn't it.

But deep down, I know that somehow I can get through this. My college life has taught me that opportunity will always come to those who seek. Although I don't–or shall I say, haven't–loved this job, I know that it's no coincidence that I'm placed here. Yes, I'm quite a believer so I know that bigger things are already prepared for me.

For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope - Jeremiah 29:11